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My Life is better than yours, so is my boyfriend.. and other great things

So wow I just read my last post before I left tumblr for a brief sanity hiatus, it was remarkably depressing and now I’m here to gloat.. 

So here we go! 

About a year ago I got dumped and in my mind it was the end of everything because my then boyfriend was also my best friend we went to Tuesday afternoon matinee showings, laughed about life and talked about books we were reading while drinking tea (or coffee in his case) at a little coffee place we use to go to etc. and then it was all done gone and over finished, He told me I deserved better.. I went out of town to visit a cousin and get my minds off things deleted tumblr and some other social media from my phone for a while and cried a lot.. while out of town visiting my cousin I met a friend of my cousin, who I’ve known for my whole life in an “oh yeah that’s my cousins friend” kind of way. 

That’s the back story to my gloating. 

9 months ago still very emotional and sad about my life not turning out exactly how I planned it I wrote the very depressing post about this great song, then 8 months ago I went to visit my cousin again just for family time there was a birthday and some family dinner stuff going on 

After the family dinner stuff was over my cousin Catherine and I met up with our cousin Zeke at this bar, I was not expecting my whole life to change that night or expecting to have a boyfriend by the end of that weekend (mainly because it wasn’t my life plan) But that is exactly what happened.  

Now 8 months into our relationship we have the best of times (ever.) No one has more fun then we do, I mean yes we fight and yes it’s mainly my fault for our fights because I’m a crazy girl and start crying for who knows what reason and then he laughs at me and says “you’re beautiful and wipes my tears” (this has actually happened more then once!) we joke about stupid stuff play video games and sometimes we even pick each others noses (really we’ve both done this to each other and its nasty I don’t know whats wrong with us…) 

he paints my nails and then scratches any itches I have while my nails dry,  he farts while we cuddle watching shows it’s disgusting but then he follows it with ” I have a tummy ache I’m sorry” and then I can’t help but die of laughter, we talk on the phone and it doesn’t suck! Really it has been the most amazing 8 months of my life, We’re going to New York this October and then hopefully India in January and California in the summer and it’s amazing! 

Anyways the point of my gloating. 

We went to a party the other night and this girl was talking to me about how cute and wonderful we were, to say it in her words “you guys are literally the cutest couple ever”  and it made me feel awesome right up until she followed it up with ” I wish I could have what you guys have” 

And I mean yeah that still makes me feel good but I felt for her because I’ve been there where I loathed every single couple that looked even remotely happy because “I was going to end up all alone forever”. in my mind that was gonna happen.. So I ended up telling her she can have it! not exactly like our relationship but she can have an awesome happy fun crazy exciting relationship with someone and I just want everyone to know that it is possible for them, so there that’s the point to my gloating, You can have the happiest best relationship of your life. Yep there you go. 

I’ve got two weddings and a party this Saturday and I was basically panicking because I had this great outfit planned out and my mom looked at me and said “you can’t wear black to a wedding, everyone knows that..” so I was thinking of dresses in my closet and I thought “well that’s ok because I have the perfect dress!.. no wait it’s cream can you wear cream to a wedding?” so I had to ask my mom and she laughed, She laughed! and I knew that meant no :/ still in crisis I run upstairs look at pinterest and google “wedding outfits for guests” and looking at all that feeling utterly lost and hopeless when I finally decide to look in my closet for something perfect to wear to two weddings and a party, needless to say the very first thing I see and it is perfect literally I can wear it to all 3 events dress it up and down and I haven’t even worn it once yet.. so crisis averted!  

I’ve got two weddings and a party this Saturday and I was basically panicking because I had this great outfit planned out and my mom looked at me and said “you can’t wear black to a wedding, everyone knows that..” so I was thinking of dresses in my closet and I thought “well that’s ok because I have the perfect dress!.. no wait it’s cream can you wear cream to a wedding?” so I had to ask my mom and she laughed, She laughed! and I knew that meant no :/ still in crisis I run upstairs look at pinterest and google “wedding outfits for guests” and looking at all that feeling utterly lost and hopeless when I finally decide to look in my closet for something perfect to wear to two weddings and a party, needless to say the very first thing I see and it is perfect literally I can wear it to all 3 events dress it up and down and I haven’t even worn it once yet.. so crisis averted!  

You know when that favorite band of yours comes on but it’s a song you’ve never heard and then you see that it’s from their new album and you love the song immediately it’s just beautiful and speaks to you but it speaks to you in what you’ve always wanted in what you were so close to having it says “this is what you were so close to having this is what your heart has been breaking over this, this is going to make you cry alone in your car for thirty minutes and then you’ll cry alone in your shower for an hour and then after all that you’ll feel empty and hopeless because you were so close to having it all.” That happened to me tonight, it was a beautiful song and it could have been a happy song if I wasn’t feeling like the whole universe has caved in on me and the oxygen in my lungs was running out. Anyways I’m having a rough month and I just want to be able to call you up and tell you everything and cry and then laugh and have you make everything better like you always use to do, but I can’t have that so I’ll tell myself it’ll be ok I’ll cry and then laugh at how pathetic and stupid I am and then I’ll go to sleep feeling empty and lost just like I have been for months now.

Nothing makes you feel like a shopaholic more than finding clothes in your closet you forgot you bought.. 😐

Things that suck about being sick.

1. Being sick
2. Coughing sneezing wheezing etc.
3.headaches
4.sleepiness
5. An all around gross feeling

But on the plus side I’ve been in bed all day watching shows sleeping at any time I want. tea and soup by the gallons and yeah I guess it has it’s pros and cons

I just want to scream and yell and rage text you.. Instead I’m giving up. Yup I quit.

I’m starting to kinda sorta feel like a grown up! It’s crazy! I have semi grown up clothes now and I have a job that pays my bills, because I actually have real grown up bills now and I still live at home with my parents! Uh okay so that part isn’t so grown up but statistically more young adults are living with their parents now so I’m not to worried.

Anyways I was really upset on my last post because well I’m freshly single from a very shockingly short relationship.. But I’m okay now I guess and moving on like a mature grown up!

Back to clothes.. I got a Dior sweater for $4.63 today at Goodwill ^_^ So yes its designer and vintage and fabulous! Also within the span of uh how ever long I’ve been single I’ve spent over $500 on clothes.. I do a lot of retail therapy and it gets out of control.. But I still paid my car payment, phone bill insurance and paid for gas for the past two months so I guess its not that out of control, right? right.

Aside from feeling kinda grown up and being an obvious shopaholic I’ve been working and planning a friends wedding shower and feeling like I’m doing something wrong since I’m not with someone and not planning my own wedding but I know there is a time for everything and that part of my life isn’t here yet. But man I really wish it was here already..

Also I went to the doctors today.. I am not a big fan of doctors.. dentists sure I love ‘em but like actual physical health doctors bleh.. Everything went fine but since I’m in my twenties they wanted to know if I wanted to get a pap-smear today or wait until my next visit, and as the big grown up girl that I am I said I’d like to wait until next year…. >_> so not so grown up.. I just wasn’t prepared for that today if I had gone in ready for that I would have said yes but I thought it would just be like you know a not so grown up lady parts doctor visit.. I’ll do it next year and I’ll feel even more grown up and look back at this post and laugh then write a new post of how silly I was this year. 

Mhmm that’s it for now lovely followers! 

I find myself crying on my drive home and laying in bed hating all the happy couples in the world.. I know we agreed to still be friends but I don’t feel like we are still friends :/

Well every song on the radio and every song on Iheartradio is about relationships… Mainly break ups… This is why recovering from a break is so hard :/ can this just stop being so terrible! I miss his clothes and the way they smell, the way he smells.. I miss is voice and his arms holding me. It’s only been 4 days and it just sucks more and more each day :/

I don’t get on here as much as I used to.. I work way to much to blog and it makes me sad. So I’m going to try and get back on the ball with my blogging

I don’t get on here as much as I used to.. I work way to much to blog and it makes me sad. So I’m going to try and get back on the ball with my blogging

My Life is better than yours, so is my boyfriend.. and other great things

So wow I just read my last post before I left tumblr for a brief sanity hiatus, it was remarkably depressing and now I’m here to gloat.. 

So here we go! 

About a year ago I got dumped and in my mind it was the end of everything because my then boyfriend was also my best friend we went to Tuesday afternoon matinee showings, laughed about life and talked about books we were reading while drinking tea (or coffee in his case) at a little coffee place we use to go to etc. and then it was all done gone and over finished, He told me I deserved better.. I went out of town to visit a cousin and get my minds off things deleted tumblr and some other social media from my phone for a while and cried a lot.. while out of town visiting my cousin I met a friend of my cousin, who I’ve known for my whole life in an “oh yeah that’s my cousins friend” kind of way. 

That’s the back story to my gloating. 

9 months ago still very emotional and sad about my life not turning out exactly how I planned it I wrote the very depressing post about this great song, then 8 months ago I went to visit my cousin again just for family time there was a birthday and some family dinner stuff going on 

After the family dinner stuff was over my cousin Catherine and I met up with our cousin Zeke at this bar, I was not expecting my whole life to change that night or expecting to have a boyfriend by the end of that weekend (mainly because it wasn’t my life plan) But that is exactly what happened.  

Now 8 months into our relationship we have the best of times (ever.) No one has more fun then we do, I mean yes we fight and yes it’s mainly my fault for our fights because I’m a crazy girl and start crying for who knows what reason and then he laughs at me and says “you’re beautiful and wipes my tears” (this has actually happened more then once!) we joke about stupid stuff play video games and sometimes we even pick each others noses (really we’ve both done this to each other and its nasty I don’t know whats wrong with us…) 

he paints my nails and then scratches any itches I have while my nails dry,  he farts while we cuddle watching shows it’s disgusting but then he follows it with ” I have a tummy ache I’m sorry” and then I can’t help but die of laughter, we talk on the phone and it doesn’t suck! Really it has been the most amazing 8 months of my life, We’re going to New York this October and then hopefully India in January and California in the summer and it’s amazing! 

Anyways the point of my gloating. 

We went to a party the other night and this girl was talking to me about how cute and wonderful we were, to say it in her words “you guys are literally the cutest couple ever”  and it made me feel awesome right up until she followed it up with ” I wish I could have what you guys have” 

And I mean yeah that still makes me feel good but I felt for her because I’ve been there where I loathed every single couple that looked even remotely happy because “I was going to end up all alone forever”. in my mind that was gonna happen.. So I ended up telling her she can have it! not exactly like our relationship but she can have an awesome happy fun crazy exciting relationship with someone and I just want everyone to know that it is possible for them, so there that’s the point to my gloating, You can have the happiest best relationship of your life. Yep there you go. 

I’ve got two weddings and a party this Saturday and I was basically panicking because I had this great outfit planned out and my mom looked at me and said “you can’t wear black to a wedding, everyone knows that..” so I was thinking of dresses in my closet and I thought “well that’s ok because I have the perfect dress!.. no wait it’s cream can you wear cream to a wedding?” so I had to ask my mom and she laughed, She laughed! and I knew that meant no :/ still in crisis I run upstairs look at pinterest and google “wedding outfits for guests” and looking at all that feeling utterly lost and hopeless when I finally decide to look in my closet for something perfect to wear to two weddings and a party, needless to say the very first thing I see and it is perfect literally I can wear it to all 3 events dress it up and down and I haven’t even worn it once yet.. so crisis averted!  

I’ve got two weddings and a party this Saturday and I was basically panicking because I had this great outfit planned out and my mom looked at me and said “you can’t wear black to a wedding, everyone knows that..” so I was thinking of dresses in my closet and I thought “well that’s ok because I have the perfect dress!.. no wait it’s cream can you wear cream to a wedding?” so I had to ask my mom and she laughed, She laughed! and I knew that meant no :/ still in crisis I run upstairs look at pinterest and google “wedding outfits for guests” and looking at all that feeling utterly lost and hopeless when I finally decide to look in my closet for something perfect to wear to two weddings and a party, needless to say the very first thing I see and it is perfect literally I can wear it to all 3 events dress it up and down and I haven’t even worn it once yet.. so crisis averted!  

You know when that favorite band of yours comes on but it’s a song you’ve never heard and then you see that it’s from their new album and you love the song immediately it’s just beautiful and speaks to you but it speaks to you in what you’ve always wanted in what you were so close to having it says “this is what you were so close to having this is what your heart has been breaking over this, this is going to make you cry alone in your car for thirty minutes and then you’ll cry alone in your shower for an hour and then after all that you’ll feel empty and hopeless because you were so close to having it all.” That happened to me tonight, it was a beautiful song and it could have been a happy song if I wasn’t feeling like the whole universe has caved in on me and the oxygen in my lungs was running out. Anyways I’m having a rough month and I just want to be able to call you up and tell you everything and cry and then laugh and have you make everything better like you always use to do, but I can’t have that so I’ll tell myself it’ll be ok I’ll cry and then laugh at how pathetic and stupid I am and then I’ll go to sleep feeling empty and lost just like I have been for months now.

Nothing makes you feel like a shopaholic more than finding clothes in your closet you forgot you bought.. 😐

Things that suck about being sick.

1. Being sick
2. Coughing sneezing wheezing etc.
3.headaches
4.sleepiness
5. An all around gross feeling

But on the plus side I’ve been in bed all day watching shows sleeping at any time I want. tea and soup by the gallons and yeah I guess it has it’s pros and cons

I just want to scream and yell and rage text you.. Instead I’m giving up. Yup I quit.

I’m starting to kinda sorta feel like a grown up! It’s crazy! I have semi grown up clothes now and I have a job that pays my bills, because I actually have real grown up bills now and I still live at home with my parents! Uh okay so that part isn’t so grown up but statistically more young adults are living with their parents now so I’m not to worried.

Anyways I was really upset on my last post because well I’m freshly single from a very shockingly short relationship.. But I’m okay now I guess and moving on like a mature grown up!

Back to clothes.. I got a Dior sweater for $4.63 today at Goodwill ^_^ So yes its designer and vintage and fabulous! Also within the span of uh how ever long I’ve been single I’ve spent over $500 on clothes.. I do a lot of retail therapy and it gets out of control.. But I still paid my car payment, phone bill insurance and paid for gas for the past two months so I guess its not that out of control, right? right.

Aside from feeling kinda grown up and being an obvious shopaholic I’ve been working and planning a friends wedding shower and feeling like I’m doing something wrong since I’m not with someone and not planning my own wedding but I know there is a time for everything and that part of my life isn’t here yet. But man I really wish it was here already..

Also I went to the doctors today.. I am not a big fan of doctors.. dentists sure I love ‘em but like actual physical health doctors bleh.. Everything went fine but since I’m in my twenties they wanted to know if I wanted to get a pap-smear today or wait until my next visit, and as the big grown up girl that I am I said I’d like to wait until next year…. >_> so not so grown up.. I just wasn’t prepared for that today if I had gone in ready for that I would have said yes but I thought it would just be like you know a not so grown up lady parts doctor visit.. I’ll do it next year and I’ll feel even more grown up and look back at this post and laugh then write a new post of how silly I was this year. 

Mhmm that’s it for now lovely followers! 

I find myself crying on my drive home and laying in bed hating all the happy couples in the world.. I know we agreed to still be friends but I don’t feel like we are still friends :/

Well every song on the radio and every song on Iheartradio is about relationships… Mainly break ups… This is why recovering from a break is so hard :/ can this just stop being so terrible! I miss his clothes and the way they smell, the way he smells.. I miss is voice and his arms holding me. It’s only been 4 days and it just sucks more and more each day :/

I don’t get on here as much as I used to.. I work way to much to blog and it makes me sad. So I’m going to try and get back on the ball with my blogging

I don’t get on here as much as I used to.. I work way to much to blog and it makes me sad. So I’m going to try and get back on the ball with my blogging

My Life is better than yours, so is my boyfriend.. and other great things
Things that suck about being sick.

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